Family-life has been a little crazy and a little sad lately. Boyfriend played Fallout (I'm not a huge gamer, but man, post-apocalyptia is somehow soothing when shit hits the fan), and I lounged with the recovering pup and pulled out the ol' tarot cards. Sunday was a big thinking day, and I think I'm better off for it.
I've been playing a thought exercise: What would it look like if my aspirations and aesthetics (no matter how indulgent) were fully realized? What elements of that life speak the most to me? Why not try to make that a reality? I love my 9-5 job, but I've been tinkering with the idea of picking up a side gig that would, admittedly, be a little indulgent. I can't jump wholeheartedly into something without considering it from all angles, though, so that's where I'm at. Investing (literally) in a new project is a scary prospect -- we have a mortgage now, after all. At the same time, it's nice to have this business-life yang to balance out the family-life yin.
How are you doing, honestly? What would your ideal lifestyle look like? Why not chase that?
Honestly? I can't wait for my husband to finish school and get a full time job so I can quit mine (or even just go part time) and work on being a writer. I want time to write short stories and poetry and work on photography. In my ideal world I would get up early and work on whatever writing project I have at the time sitting by a window with a full cup of hot coffee and I would work on it until I was done with whatever I needed to say. Eventually, I will get there. For now, it's a side gig that I will enjoy as much as I can, when I can. I hope your side gig works out if it's what you truly want!
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